So, there was a gap in my entries, because well, Q4 — but my second semester of grad school is now in FULL SWING!
(For those of you who have zero idea what I’m talking about, at the end of last summer, I announced my dream of pursuing my Master’s of Social Work and CTC has partnered with me in support of my goal, but more on that here.)
We’re now seven months into this and, wow has the sparkle worn off!
The excitement has been replaced with slogs on the 405 and trying to squeeze extra hours out of the day because the list of needs is too long. I spend more days with my sleeves rolled up in the muck and mire of achieving my dreams than I do jumping up and down over the opportunity. Because shockingly, the pursuit of your dreams isn’t always glamorous or inspired or even exciting; it’s hard work.
In fact, often times, it’s also really scary. Trusting my company and our partners to follow through on their mission can feel vulnerable (they’ve totally honored me in that), and reflecting on potentially needing to leave the organization I love terrifies me.
Maybe the timing isn't right?
“Life doesn’t always present you with the perfect opportunity at the perfect time. Opportunities come when you least expect them, or when you’re not ready for them. Rarely are opportunities presented to you in the perfect way, in a nice little box with a yellow bow on top. … Opportunities, the good ones, they’re messy and confusing and hard to recognize. They’re risky. They challenge you.” – Susan Wojcicki, CEO of YouTube
Am I ready?
"I always did something I was a little not ready to do. I think that's how you grow. When there's that moment of 'Wow, I'm not really sure I can do this,' and you push through those moments, that's when you have a breakthrough." – Marissa Mayer, former president and CEO of Yahoo!
Is this even the right thing to do?
“You have to jump without the rope to go further than you thought possible.” – Taylor Holiday, Managing Partner of Common Thread Collective (In other words, without a safety net.)
But the dream is bigger than a role or current comfort and known challenge. It’s placing a bet on yourself and on the community that has cashed in their support to help you put it all on black.
Sometimes the best thing to do is have the courage to stay your course, resist the temptation to second-guess yourself or turn back, and work like hell to make it real.
But what if I fail?
“The only thing worse than starting something and failing is not starting something.” – Seth Godin, author, entrepreneur, public speaker
I’m no expert in starting businesses and certainly not risk-taking, and maybe to some, my grad school dream isn’t that big of a risk at all. But once the confetti gets cleaned up and you’re knee-deep in the midst of the challenge like I am, I know for sure that that’s where it really makes all the difference.